The savory period of my recovery is slowly coming to a close and the pills that are making it so savory are also nearing an end. Considering all things, this week has been pretty wonderful for me. I got my tonsils removed and because of that, my Mom and Aunt Mary came to visit for a few days. I felt fine and in fact was co-host of a really great potluck on the same night as my surgery. This was much needed time off and even though I did take some really fantastic naps, I feel like I have done a lot. I feel accomplished and that is always a good feeling. This morning, I was awoken to the sweet sounds of Eiffel 65's "Blue" because the ultra-tan fashion model/barista girl at Cruise-n-Coffee (which is the drive-in coffee shop right outside of my window) was playing it as she opened up shop. Brianna and I went for a walk around the Marquette morning and found ourselves in the cemetery among the souls of the dead and the plants of the community gardens that share the space with them.
One major thing that I am thankful for with this move is that we three--Brianna, Stephanie, and I--are all somewhat in the same place, trying to figure things out for ourselves and become the people that we should be and want to be, not the people that we often feel pressured to be. One aspect that we're all kind of looking into is spirituality since none of us believe in the generally accepted idea of God. So this morning, Brianna and I went to a Unitarian Universalist Congregation which is kind of a mass for spiritual atheists. I didn't know what to expect because it is hard to imagine going to church and not hearing about how good God is and how bad I am, but I had a really great time and was very impressed. People were happy and fun and one elderly lady was even mock-ballet dancing in the little reception area because there was some classical music playing. It was the celebration of flowers today and we all took a flower home and then took time to reflect on the flower and the journey it has gone through from seed to where it is now and the complexities and simplicities that it contains. I think I want to start going every week. Well, every week starting the week after next since I will be in Pinconning! on the 15th which is the day after Justin's party, Father's Day, and Sarah's birthday. Don't worry, I wont be buying any Nike's and drinking poison kool-aid; I just really like this idea of people coming together to celebrate one another, without prejudice or guilt or ignorance.
I watched "The Pursuit of Happyness" which is a pretty sad and inspiring okay movie. And "Happyness" is intentionally misspelled. It was good but that's basically all I have to say about it.
I think I have spent a lot of time today tweaking the HTML code on this blog to change what it looks like. I have come to realize that I usually like to make things look beautiful before I start putting them to use. I am not being conceited and saying that my blog looks absolutely beautiful, but I mean that I was more concerned with what it was going to look like than I was with what it was going to say. Is it expression? and is expression a gateway to creativity and more expression? That's what I think it is. I know that I like things to look a certain way before I can feel like they are complete or fully functional. Does this mean that I am fussy about physical appearances? I don't think of myself that way but maybe I am. It seems to be more of the beauty of the things around me or the things that I do rather than actually being me. Is that me? Did Pilgrim's wear tennis-shoes? I need to stop thinking about this and go to bed or the bathroom or something.
But one other thing that I am thankful for: the autosave feature on this blog. For a few moments, I really thought that I had typed all of this and lost it to an accidental visit to YouTube.
Goodnight Moon
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